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Heart In Chains

Monday July 1

Moon in Aries

Regular visitors might have noticed that my website was down last night and into this morning.

I could easily blame Mercury, after all, anything that goes wrong over the next few weeks can be blamed on Mercury, but the fault is all mine.

I exceeded my bandwidth.

And no, this has absolutely nothing to do with the fact that since wilfully stepping off my dietary bandwagon in March I have regained 3kgs of the 7kgs I lost, and my jeans are again threatening to damage internal organs. No, this is about the waistband of my website.

I made it too pretty. Well, that’s my translation. My provider, who is, incidentally, amazing, says it’s to do with increased traffic and, while that’s a great thing, I have to carefully look at my limitations.

Now, the canny ones among you will see just where this is heading.

Absolutely… to today’s star aspect- Venus square Saturn.

Venus/Saturn aspects can be difficult indeed. Especially the square and the opposition.

The good news is, yes, there is good news, this aspect only lasts a day or so. It’s more of a reminder, an encouragement, a friendly tap on the shoulder or stern waggle of the finger than a full on Saturn lesson- you get that with the opposite ie transiting Saturn square Venus.

What’s it mean?

In my case, I’m looking at the boundaries of both my website and my jeans. I’m not prepared to expand either any further, so I’ll simply have to curb a few excesses and work within them.

For you it might be something very different.

With Venus in demonstrative Leo, and Saturn in fearful Scorpio, you may feel as though your attentions, advances or needs are simply not being heard. Or, if they are being heard, the other person has his (or her) head stuck so firmly in the sand (or some other equally dark place) that they’re deliberately not hearing you, because to hear you means that action has to be taken. Given that these are both fixed and stubborn signs…well, you get the point.

Even though I know that I’ve put on weight- my jeans have been screaming the news to me for the last uncomfortable month- I’ve avoided facing the truth. How? In a very (ahem) mature and responsible way:

  • By not washing my jeans
  • By not standing on the scales

My jeans finally walked to the washer and dryer over the weekend, so I had to do the freshly washed tight jeans dance around the bedroom this morning as I tried to pull them up.

I also I finally stood on the scales, faced my fears, and listened to what my clothes (and my knees) had been telling me.

By not seeing the evidence, I could avoid doing something about it, but once confronted with the truth, I have two choices:

  • Buy bigger jeans, or
  • Jump back on the healthy habits bandwagon

I’ve chosen to do the second and July is the new January.

Now, I struggle with Saturn- I’ve said that before…& my experience of Venus is an impulsive one. The thing is, when Venus is square Saturn, a little tough love might be the order of the day. You can have what you want, but you might need to make some tough decisions, jump a few hurdles, put in the hard yards. You might need to practice a little restraint.

The warning, under any Saturn influence- especially a Scorpio one- is that you might find yourself worrying too much, feeling dissatisfied over something that is really not worth the energy. Saturn likes to look at things from a half full mentality.

Then again you might be getting a glimpse at what is really going on- you might be getting a glimpse of a deal breaker.

If this is the case, before you do anything you might later regret, step to one side, withdraw a little if you need to, and:

  • Remind yourself that you are both human, with all the frailties and imperfections that implies
  • Remind yourself that if you are only human with all the frailties and imperfections that implies, so too is your relationship
  • Remind yourself that often the dissatisfaction we have in relationships is projected from within
  • Remind yourself that only you are responsible for your happiness

With the Moon in Aries, your instinct might be to cut and run…before you do this, see if there’s another way of breaking those chains and feeling less trapped. Something that you can do for yourself.

 

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