Have you ever had that really weird funny feeling in your chest like your veins are full of champagne and the bubbles are all pumping through your heart? That really weird feeling that feels like when you are first in love but know that you can’t be, but that there doesn’t seem to be any other real explanation for? The feeling that makes you feel like your head and all the bits you think with are somehow disconnected from the part of you that feels?
The last few days, that has been me. The thinking part of me did a self check and crossed off all possible alternatives and put it down to having a great weekend with lots of talking & drinking with a close friend. The thinking part of me also did a quick transit check and found a couple of nice Venus transits (transiting Venus conjunct Neptune & Progressed Moon opposite Venus). The thinking me then told the feeling me to quit singing crappy songs and go and have another drink and a good sit down. But then the feeling bit that doesn’t normally get much of a say told the thinking bit to “bugger off, I’m not dulling this one with alcohol.”
Anyway, my brain was getting a little pissed off with my heart running around having its own little euphoric romp so went looking in Solarfire for another possible cause… and found it. Saturn has finally moved on and Uranus is warming up again and is actually free to continue his romp through my first house.
The last time I felt this charged was Xmas 3 years ago when Uranus was approaching my ascendant. For the few months before and after it was as if I had a constant electrical charge of restlessness in me. I put it to good use & lost about 15kgs, went blonde and got some ink- it was as though all the empty spaces in me that I had been filling with food and alcohol were filled with energy and fire. Then Pluto in the 10th squared my 1st house Pisces Moon and Saturn hit Virgo and the good stuff stopped and the shitty stuff kicked in to punish me for having some fun.
It occurred to me today that I have felt heavy and leaden for the whole time that Saturn has been in Virgo- and no wonder- the party cop has been opposing all of my Pisces planets and raining on my dreams and fantasies in a pretty big way. Yes, I know the theory that I need to learn maturity and responsibility and commitment- but does it have to be so heavy? I’m a reasonable girl, and let me tell you Mr Saturn, you attract more bees with honey- or something like that.
I have natal Saturn at 58’ Aries, so the recent Saturn/Pluto square coincided with a Saturn opposition in my chart that really knocked me around. But that is all gone now. And the weird feeling in my chest that has me singing Voice of the Beehive covers of old Partridge Family songs is actually something like release from the weight that has been on my chest for the best part of 2 ½ years.
OK, I know there is only a few months of respite before Saturn opposes itself again during the retrograde phase- coincidentally at the same time that Uranus conjoins my Moon. I plan to enjoy this wonderful fizzy feeling for as long as it lasts- despite the best efforts of the uncooperative telcos I am dealing with at present… even if it is just a few days.
Anyway, for the rest of you, Uranus has stationed direct and will start to move forward again in the next day or so. Check out my post Are You Ready to Jump for some Uranian hints, but have a look at where Uranus is transiting in your chart- this is where you are being pushed into making changes that will ultimately result in a more authentic you. If, like me, this activity is happening in the first house, it will be all about you. In fact if Pisces for you is on an angle, ie in the 1st, 10th ,7th or the 4th, who you are, what you do, where you do it from and who you do it with; will all attract some of the unpredictable, rebellious Uranian spark. It is pointless to resist- go with it. This is especially true if you have sensitive chart points (especially the Sun or Moon) at or around 22 degrees of Pisces, Gemini, Virgo or Sagittarius.
Uranian transits can be difficult- particularly if you are the type who does what is expected of them. But, if you let your authentic self out to play with Uranus, it can be one hell of a ride. Maybe your heart will feel like it is singing cheesy 70s songs too.
“I was sleeping and then right in the middle of a good dream, like all at once I wake up from something that keeps knocking at my brain. Before I go insane I pull my pillow to my head and spring up in my bed screaming out the words I dread…” You get the idea.