I wrote a post yesterday for the Virgo Full Moon. I sat on it, I thought about it, and then I edited it so thoroughly there was nothing of it left.
Why? I have a personal rule that I don’t talk with any specifics about my day job, and while I hadn’t broken that rule in my draft post, what I’d written felt like way too much information. It also sounded way too half-empty…and that is not who I am or what I want this post to be.
When I went back to last years’ Virgo Full Moon post, it read very similarly to what I’d written yesterday.
This time last year I was also juggling multiple personal deadlines, and dealing with the seasonal difficulties of my partition world. Last year too, I was so driven by tasks and numbers and targets and deadlines, that I’d almost forgotten why I was doing it. They’d become an end-point in themselves. The numbers on the scale, the numbers on the fit-bit, the work numbers: they each mean something, but in isolation, without context, mean nothing.
It’s like when I went to my acupuncturist on Saturday, she asked how I was: how my tummy was, my lungs, my heart. I told her that I had no idea, that I had no time to think about how it was. I meant it. In dealing with the details of my duties, I had no idea how I felt, let alone had a chance to talk to my body about how it felt.
And last week when I had a massive dreadlock in my hair- it was honestly a ball of knot the size of my fist- I worked and tore at it until it was gone. It was like all control had gone from there too, and my hair had escaped into the same sort of chaos I was feeling.
The Pisces/ Virgo axis is that area where we work so hard for absolute perfection that we forget all about moderating duty and pleasures. It is also this axis where we project our own imperfections (or perceived limitations) onto those around us. It is where we discriminate and where we are completely indiscriminate.
In dealing with the detail, and breaking that detail into more detail, and more again, we lose sight of what it means when it’s put back together. We lose sight of the whole, and we lose sight of the possibility. Pisces can show us the horizon, but we can’t see it if we’re waiting until things are perfect and finished and complete before we look up.
I’m trying to deliberately step back and declare things to be good enough, accept that I can’t be perfect, that my work isn’t perfect, my routine is not perfect and my mood is far from perfect- and acknowledge that I can’t do it all, I don’t have to do it all, and I don’t have to take it all onto my shoulders…self martyrdom is such a Virgo shadow thing to do. Besides, quite frankly, my back isn’t strong enough for that.
My work in the partition is Virgo in nature, my writing work at the end of my paid day is pure Piscean. Normally I can flow between the two- switching my brain almost seamlessly from the world of the office, to the world of my characters. Right now I’m trying to find that sweet spot between being grounded and creative.
This Full Moon is about this dichotomy. Where 3 Virgo (or thereabouts) falls in your chart is where you seek perfection, idealise perfection, worry about the niggly concerns that mar what would otherwise be perfection. Your balance can be found on the other side of the chart- at 3 Pisces.
It’s also where you need to learn to embrace things the way that they are, in all of their textural imperfections. It’s where you need to learn to let it be.
Doing it for yourself…
For a refresher of the steps, check out this post or click onto the Full Moon pic on the side-bar.
Where is this happening for you? 3 Virgo is in my 6th house. For me, this one is about balancing health, duty and service with escape, imagination and possibility. Too far in either direction will result in chaos and self-sabotage.
If you’re not sure where this is for you, check out the info below, and refer back to Series 1 of the Toolbox for pointers on what each of the houses means.
- If your Sun or Ascendant is in Pisces, this Full Moon falls in your 7th house. Look to the 1st for balance.
- If your Sun or Ascendant is in Aries, this Full Moon falls in your 6th house. Look to the 12th for balance.
- If your Sun or Ascendant is in Taurus, this Full Moon falls in your 5th house. Look to the 11th for balance.
- If your Sun or Ascendant is in Gemini, this Full Moon falls in your 4th house. Look to the 10th for balance.
- If your Sun or Ascendant is in Cancer, this Full Moon falls in your 3rd house. Look to the 9th for balance.
- If your Sun of Ascendant is in Leo, this Full Moon falls in your 2nd house. Look to the 8th for balance.
- If your Sun or Ascendant is in Virgo, this Full Moon falls in your 1st house. Look to the 7th for balance.
- If your Sun or Ascendant is in Libra, this Full Moon falls in your 12th house. Look to the 6th for balance.
- If your Sun or Ascendant is in Scorpio, this Full Moon falls in your 11th house. Look to the 5th for balance.
- If your Sun or Ascendant is in Sagittarius, this Full Moon falls in your 10th house. Look to the 4th for balance.
- If your Sun or Ascendant is in Capricorn, this Full Moon falls in your 9th house. Look to the 3rd for balance.
- If your Sun or Ascendant is in Aquarius this Full Moon falls in your 8th house. Look to the 2nd for balance.