The Whole of The Moon

(Full Moon by Annalia courtesy of www.dreamstime.com)

(Full Moon by Annalia courtesy of www.dreamstime.com)

How many times has a song come on the radio that just reminds you of a certain time, a certain place, a certain somebody?

A girlfriend gave me a CD compilation the other night that told me more about who she is and how she feels at this point in time than any words could. Listening to it while I was baking yesterday took me back to New Years Eve when I was about 19 and standing on a balcony in a University friends’ Darling Point apartment watching the fireworks over Sydney Harbour and kissing a very kissable musician whose name I can’t remember, but who I met that night for the first time and never saw again.

The song that sent me down Memory Lane was The Waterboys’ “The Whole of the Moon”. It was playing in the background at the time. It was a moment that I hadn’t given a thought to in over 20 years, but which inexplicably came up when I heard that song again.

Flash forward to another scene. I am sitting leaning back against the couch with a male friend listening to vinyl records. We have an empty bottle of cheap wine between us, a fresh one we are taking it in turns to drink out of, and single and album covers lying all around us as we cherry pick individual songs to play. My Cancer friend had reached a crossroads of sorts- he had been with his current girlfriend almost to the point of no return and was debating whether to stay or go. I had recently had my heart broken very thoroughly and was in my Pisces Moon way debating whether to take him back again (I did) so that he could cheat on me again (he did).

‘I love this song! It reminds me of the 1st time D* and I did it,’ he says. The song? “Busting Loose by Aussie 80’s band Moving Pictures. D* was his ex girlfriend, the love of his love, the one that got away, the one he was comparing his current squeeze to.

Every guy’s a clumsy poet and every girl’s a beauty queen and they’re fogging up the windows of their friends parked cars on the way to their land of dreams- do you know what I mean?

I choose Abba’s “The Winner Takes It All: But tell me, does she kiss, like I used to kiss you. Does it feel the same, when she calls your name?  Tears rolling down my cheeks I take another swig of the wine bottle and pass it across before selecting the extended play version of Yello’s “Oh Yeah (which had been “our” song- long story…) and Pet Shop Boys’ version of “Always On My Mind. He chooses Johnny Logans’ “Hold Me Now” (puh-leeeese) and The Clashs’ “Should I Stay or Should I Go?”

Anyone who follows on me on Facebook and Twitter will see that I often post lyrics that say what it is I need to say. If love is a bolt from the blue, then what is that bolt but a glorified screw and that doesn’t hold nothing together. But for one crowded hour you were the only one in the room. (“One Crowded Hour” by Augie March). I like to use lyrics also in this blog as a way of illustrating a planet or a sign that I may have difficulties otherwise describing.

I keep a playlist on my ipod that I move songs in and out of. They are all songs that mean something to my Pisces Moon at a point in time. Damien Rice (“The Blowers Daughter”, “Accidental Babies”, “9 Crimes”) and Fine Frenzy (“Almost Lover”, “Think of You”) for pain and longing: so you’re gone and I’m haunted. Did I make it that easy for you to walk in and out of my life?

When I’m angry and trying to feed the rage I may have Duran Durans’ “Careless Memories” or The Veronicas’ “This is How it Feels on high rotation.  …And maybe I won’t forgive, I’ll just forget you lived, And I hope it hurts…This is how it feels: When you wait for a call that never comes Are you waking up ’cause you miss someone?

Currently I am playing The Partridge Familys’ “I Think I love You” and Sugababes’ “About You Now”: Can we bring yesterday back around cause I know how I feel about you now.

Everything on my playlist shows the extreme emotions of my Pisces Moon. The music on my friends list was different and expressed her Moon. For those of us with an “unfortunate” Mercury or some other inhibition around saying what we feel out loud, our personal playlists are able to do it for us. Even if we never have the courage to dump the music to CD and send it to where it needs to go, our personal playlist speaks from the heart, from the Moon and from the planets which aspect your Moon.

What’s on your playlist right now? Are you full of the earthy joy of Xmas and enjoying traditional carols or are you drowning in cheesy love songs remembering lost romance? Perhaps you are indulging in the hidden meaning of clever lyrics or feeling the burn at the gym with some heavy metal.

I leave you with the lyrics to “The Whole of The Moon”- a song for the limitlessness and beyondness that is my Moon- but feel free to let your Moon use it too and learn how it feels to reach too high, too far and too soon.

I pictured a rainbow
you held in your hands
I had flashes
but you saw the plan
I wandered out in the world for years
while you just stayed in your room
I saw the crescent
you saw the whole of the moon!
The whole of the moon!

You were there at the turnstiles
with the wind at your heels
You stretched for the stars
and you know how it feels
To reach too high
too far
Too soon
you saw the whole of the moon!

I was grounded
while you filled the skies
I was dumbfounded by truths
you cut through lies
I saw the rain-dirty valley
you saw Brigadoon
I saw the crescent
you saw the whole of the moon!

I spoke about wings
you just flew
I wondered, I guessed, and I tried
you just knew
I sighed
but you swooned
I saw the crescent
you saw the whole of the moon!
The whole of the moon!

With a torch in your pocket
and the wind at your heels
You climbed on the ladder
and you know how it feels
To reach too high
too far
Too soon
you saw the whole of the moon!
The whole of the moon!

Unicorns and cannonballs,
palaces and piers,
Trumpets, towers, and tenements,
wide oceans full of tears,
Flag, rags, ferry boats,
scimitars and scarves,
Every precious dream and vision
underneath the stars
You climbed on the ladder
with the wind in your sails
You came like a comet
blazing your trail
Too high
too far
Too soon
you saw the whole of the moon!

1 comment for “The Whole of The Moon

  1. Robyn
    December 21, 2009 at 3:14 pm

    Hmmm, now you have me thinking! I want to look at my playlist again.
    Thnx!

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