Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will… (as tweeted by @womenshealthmag
The other night I did a reading with a wonderfully switched on client who has some seriously exciting Uranus transits ahead- including a conjunction with the Midheaven, or career zone.
The concept we spoke about was
What would you do if there was no chance of failure, and nothing to lose?
This question is usually followed by an answer that (rightly so) lists financial considerations as a blockage. But not this client.
So I asked the question yesterday on my Facebook Fan page- and got some great answers. I’d added the proviso- if resources were not an issue.
The thing is, as one reader pointed out, very often resources are (rightly so) an excuse that stops us from doing what we want to be doing, but the real obstacle is fear.
- Fear of failure
- Fear of discomfort
- Fear of rejection
- Fear of success (yes, really)
- Fear of disappointment
- Fear of abandonment
- Fear of ridicule
- Fear of exclusion
Do you want me to keep going?
The thing about fears is that we all have them- but usually try to avoid them. The other thing about fears is the longer we avoid them or ignore them, the bigger and hairier and nastier and uglier they get.
This is all Uranus/Sun stuff. Uranus is our quest for freedom, individuality, authenticity, to live life unedited and without apology. The Sun is the ego. The Sun needs people around to approve the choice, provide the dancing girls and hallelujah chorus when all goes well, and the excuses when it doesn’t.
When you listen to Uranus you risk disapproval. When you listen solely to the Sun you risk losing yourself.
This is one of the reasons Leo is misunderstood. We see Leo standing proudly under the lights in centre stage. What we don’t see is the insecurity behind the façade- the lion from the Wizard of Oz who wishes for the courage to lead and be the real King of Beasts.
It’s that leonine pride that often is the downfall of Leo- a fear of failing…or of being seen to fail.
Both Aquarius and Leo (the signs spot lighted in this Full Moon) are fixed signs. The ego is fixed and ideas are fixed. The balance point is somewhere in between…in a place of self love and acceptance.
Tomorrows Full Moon (at 7 Leo 24’) falls in the 5th house for me- spotlighting 5th/11th house issues. In my case it is my creative expression vs my hopes and dreams. In order to achieve my hopes and dreams I have to face the things my ego is most afraid of in order to shine.
My stumbling block has always been a general fear of rejection- I don’t like to put myself out there…in case any of the stuff listed above happens. My Pisces Mercury (actually, all of my Pisces planets) doesn’t like to put herself out there. I’ll sit on my arse and wait for an invitation- and even then will curl up into a little ball at the nanoest of nanograms of even potential rejection.
This Full Moon forms a quincunx (or inconjunct) to that Mercury (and exact squares to the nodes). Quincunxes (don’t say it fast or under the influence) are like a blockage in the sewerage pipe of life. You need an almighty great plunger to clear it- and then the water can flow free. The quincunx heralds a change or a move to a new situation- whether you are ready for it or not.
The squares to the nodes basically says I can either go the easy way (to South Node in Scorpio) and hang onto my fears, or move forward. Moving towards the North Node is uncomfortable, but ultimately rewarding.
Completing a T square to this Full Moon is Saturn in Scorpio, representing the fixed fears and paranoia we’ve been talking about.
As always, when we see a T square, we look for a release point- in the case of this Full Moon we have two- Uranus, and a Jupiter who is champing at the bit to move forward. The Sun is sextile Uranus and trine Jupiter, while the Moon is sextile Jupiter and trine Uranus. Opportunities abound to do something about whatever it is that is stopping you from shining.
Leo is aligned with the 5th house, with play, creativity, self-expression and the inner child. In this whirl of modern living it is that inner child which is forgotten- if indeed he/she ever really existed. It is that inner child that is drowned out by all the authority figures telling us what it is that we should be doing, what we should be wearing, who we should be seeing etc.
Think about this honestly- when was the last time that you let yourself have fun- simply because you really wanted to? Guilt free, fuss free, judgement free, responsibility free fun?
What about this one- when was the last time you picked up your hobby, and I don’t mean planted your bum on the lounge and watched a game on the TV? By hobby, I mean something that allows you to creatively express yourself. We all have a 5th house, and we all have something that is creative if we could only give ourselves permission to indulge in it.
So, this Full Moon, I’d like you to do two things for me:
- Confront a fear- look it square in the eyes, shine a torch on it and laugh at it.
- Do something creative or fun. Anything. If you’re writing, don’t edit yourself. If you’re painting, let the colours happen. If you’re designing, see what shapes emerge. No judgement.
NEW ZEALAND: 5.38pm, January 27
SYDNEY: 3.38pm, January 27
WEST COAST AUS, SE ASIA: 12.38pm, January 27
LONDON: 4.38am, January 27
NEW YORK: 11.38pm, January 26
LOS ANGELES: 8.38pm, January 26
Oh, and the song? An oldie by Vanessa Amorosi Shine.