Full Moon 3/4 May, 2015 13 Scorpio 23′
So anyways, this week my heart has been a flutter. Literally.
Work is particularly stressful- end of month always is- but what is really making me anxious, and proud, and physically scared is the imminent release of my book, “Baby, It’s You.”
All the what-ifs are going through my brain, and each time I think on them or dwell on them, I feel that tell tale flutter of heart stopping fear…along with a flutter of pride at what I’ve achieved. Both at the same time.
You see, I have the files now. It’s finished. It’s ready to be uploaded to Amazon. Just last night I was reading it on my kindle as part of the final proof-check.
The thing is, I’m not worried about any part of the book itself- it’s as good as I can make it. I’ve done the work, followed my project plan, ticked the boxes.
What frightens me is the stuff I can’t control- how other people feel about it, what other people say, the perceptions others might have of me after this.
As the chaos has been mounting in my work life, I’m grabbing at whatever I can and holding it too close. It’s like reading the last page of a book so you know the ending, googling for spoiler alerts so you’re prepared for the shock, asking endless questions of pendulums and horary charts until the Universe yells “enough already!” Not that I do any of that…of course…
It’s ridiculous, but it’s what I do- “own” other people’s stuff, take on the responsibility for things I shouldn’t, attempt to control outcomes that I know logically I can’t. It’s why I’m currently as strung out as I am at work. I can’t seem to let it go. Yet, let it go I know I must. Otherwise it will literally make me sick. It already is- for the first time in my life, my blood pressure is higher than it should be. In order to be well, I have to let go.
The Full Moon in Scorpio is all about facing fears and letting them go, waving them goodbye. It’s about letting go of control and trusting the outcome. It’s about letting something go to allow something else to come in. It’s about letting go to see what’s underneath. It’s about letting go to let it be the way that it will be. It’s about watching a movie without the spoilers, and reading the whole book before flicking to the end.
Square Jupiter, there’s a temptation, a struggle and a challenge that also needs to be met. How far are you prepared to go? Are you prepared to take that leap of faith and trust that there will be enough…or indeed, more?
My Lunar Journal…
Although this Full Moon doesn’t aspect any planets in my chart, it falls just inside my 9th house. Just inside- less than a degree. And Jupiter is currently transiting my 5th. If you’ve been following my personal lunation journey through these monthly posts, you’ll see that for me this is a culmination of the themes that began last Full Moon in Scorpio.
Jupiter natally sits in my 5th and rules my 10th house (and my first). The Moon rules my 5th house. The 5th is about children, creativity and play- the things we give birth to and take risks on. The 9th, the house the Full Moon falls in, is about journeys, quests, faith. It’s also associated with publication and broadcasting.
My personal challenge at this Full Moon is a 3rd house Taurus one- to balance the Scorpio and Taurus parts of me- perhaps even to let go of my constant need to be in control. I’m on holiday in just over a week, and that’s exactly what I’m looking forward to doing- walking, massages, relaxing, eating, being, letting go.
DIYing it for yourself…
By now you know the drill, and hopefully are keeping track of your own lunations through a journal or something. If so, have you seen any patterns start to emerge?
Check out where the Full Moon falls in your chart
This Full Moon is at 13 Scorpio (or thereabouts), so pull out your birth-chart, and look for 13 Scorpio. The Scorpio symbol looks something like and M with its tail shooting up like an arrow…(see the pic below)…
If you need a refresher on getting your chart, go to this post.
What house is that in?
This is the part of life that will be under the spotlight for you. If you need a refresher on what each house means, go to this post.
Does the Full Moon make any aspects to planets or points in your chart?
- If you have planets at 11-15 degrees of Scorpio, they will be conjunct the Full Moon
- If you have planets at 11-15 Taurus, they will be opposite the Full Moon
- If you have planets at 11-15 Aquarius or Leo, they will be square the Full Moon
- If you have planets at 11-15 Cancer or Pisces, they will be trine the Full Moon
- If you have planets at 11-15 Virgo or Capricorn, they will be sextile the Full Moon
- Don’t forget to include chart points as well (ie house cusps- especially the 1st, 4th, 7th & 10th).
Putting it all together?
If you’re not sure, check out this post for step-by-step instructions.