January 11, 2019

Sun conjunct Pluto

I’ve always worked hard to be accountable to others, but haven’t worried so much about letting myself down. It’s the main reason I think that my track record on the personal goal front isn’t great. It’s a self-respect thing.

Anyways, accountability is the theme of today’s Sun-Pluto conjunction. It’s also a timely reminder for the whole resolution and goal-setting fiesta that we do at this time of the year.

The thing is, when it comes to resolutions and personal goals, the only person who can set and create my outcomes is me. There’s no one above me setting my goals, there’s no one above me setting deadlines, there’s no one above me patting my head if I’ve been a good girl or threatening my job if I haven’t. It’s all mine. I own it. I own the goals, I own the outcomes. That’s accountability.

It’s not, however, control.

And that’s the fine line that we always must discuss when it comes to matters involving Pluto. Power and control.

You see, we have this temptation to take control, to force action, to accept situations that allow us to feel that we have some sort of power.

The concept that we are not in control, that we alone are not all powerful is a difficult one for the ego to accept. It’s why so many of us want to know the future- as if that will give us some control or power over it.

What can we do?

We can walk our talk, we can be accountable for our actions, we can act with integrity, and we can celebrate our achievements without waiting for someone else to provide the dancing girls and hallelujah chorus. Mostly we can resist the temptation to take a walk through the blame garden when things don’t go our way.

If you haven’t done so already, today’s energy is good for setting your New Year intentions – if you’re of a mind to be doing that, of course. Make them achievable, actionable, and schedule them in your calendar. Above all, make yourself accountable for both your actions and your results – while being fully aware that this is in no way about power and control. Instead, it’s about self-respect and personal integrity – and that, surely, is a goal worth aspiring to.

In other news, today is my parent’s wedding anniversary. On this day in 1964, they made their vows. Now, that’s commitment and accountability…