So anyways, I’ve been awake since just after 2am this morning. And that’s after going to bed sometime around 11 last night.
There’s heaps of stuff going on that I won’t bore you with- mainly because in the scheme of the random shit that’s been going on around of late, the now stuff is all relatively trivial in the big scheme of things…also much of it is happening to someone close to me and I can’t do a damn thing to fix it.
Ultimately I’m feeling a combination of hamstrung, railroaded, handcuffed and out of control. Oh, and tired and emotional…and perhaps even a little paranoid.
Given that the Moon is presently in Cancer and square both Uranus and Pluto, I’m making the conscious decision to step back for at least 24 hours before doing the volcanic red-hazey over-reacting thing that’s presently threatening to explode. On three hours sleep. It’s advice I’d suggest we all take today- even if you’ve had a full nights rest.
It’s here that a little astrological knowledge helps with the perspective and understanding thing. It doesn’t make any of it go away, or resolve the situation, but it helps.
Jupiter is currently stationary at 22 Leo. Jupiter is such a huge and expansionary energy that when he stops to turn around, you’ll feel it. You’ll especially feel it if your Sun, Ascendant or Moon is in Sagittarius or Pisces. You’ll also feel it if you’re a Leo Sun or Ascendant. I’ve written a bit about Jupiter retrogrades in general here last year, so won’t spend too much time on that.
Suffice to say, that when Jupiter- the ruler of my Ascendant, Midheaven, Sun, Moon and Mercury- goes retrograde, I feel squashed, sucked under, constrained, restrained…at least until I’ve gotten used to the energy again. Plus, this is happening in my 6th house, so I’m feeling as if my commitments are too onerous (which they’re not…not really) and my resources drained. If I were my own client, I’d be telling myself that now is not a time to let healthy habits and routines lapse.
At 22 Leo, Jupiter is currently inconjunct my Sun. Inconjuncts are a difficult and (in my view) under-rated energy…especially by transit. Essentially something is happening that you’re not read for, not prepared for, but it’s happening anyway. Inconjuncts are a very Uranian energy. Coming- ready or not.
Speaking of which, Uranus is stationed exactly- and I mean exactly- on the cusp of my 2nd house. The questions of individuality, financial independence and the compromises made for each are definitely being asked. What provides freedom in one part of life, feels like trading freedom in another. Given that this is a long station- Uranus doesn’t technically station direct for another couple of weeks- I can expect this restlessness to be with me at least until after Christmas.
Then there’s my good friend, Neptune.
Neptune is trine my 8th house Scorpio Mars, and heading towards another conjunction with my 12th house Mercury. That explains the vague paranoia- something I can be a little prone to if I’m not careful. It also explains the (ahem) less than rational emotional thinking.
Mercury rules my home and relationship sectors, and that is where these outcomes are being felt.
So what’s going to happen? No idea. What I do with these energies, how I react to them is up to me.
That’s another thing that astrology has taught me- that no matter how much of a control freak I am, I can’t control the actions of others. I’m not good at letting go, but I’m trying to be better at it.