I’ve been missing quite a bit from this page of late. There’s a lot happening.
Aside from the full-time corporate gig I have, I’m also in the structural edit phase for my next book- which is going well, thanks for asking. More important than those things, there’s a lot happening at home.
When you first give birth to something, there are a lot of “firsts”- and they start while your “baby” is still in the womb. In the case of a child, there’s the first morning sickness spew, the first kick you feel, the first smile, the first tooth, the first solid food, the first steps, the first day at school, the first day at high school…and so on.
Miss 17 is in her last year of high school and the last few months have been full of “lasts”: the last first day of term, the last time I pay school fees (that one warranted a huge cheer!), the last presentation night, the last parent-teacher interviews. Her last report card came home yesterday, and now that she’s passed her driving test, the last time the L plates had to get used was Monday morning.
Next Friday is the last day of official schooling before exams start in a few weeks.
Of course, all of these “lasts” and endings come before new beginnings and possibilities. It’s all very exciting for her, but so so so much to deal with at that age.
With a practical Capricorn Ascendant and a full 4th house, she (touch wood) seems to have her feet planted firmly for now, but it doesn’t stop my husband and I from agonising and fussing over the “what ifs”. What these “what ifs” are really about, though, is our state of un-readiness for all of this. It’s the fear that maybe we haven’t done the best job, that we could have done a better job, that she’ll be hurt, that the world will chew her up. Our identities are changing as she finds, takes and grows her independence in the way that she should. We’re not ready for that either. As she took my car keys to go to the gym yesterday afternoon, I realised that there’s also a danger that as she gets her independence, mine is being reduced! That one will be nipped in the bud very quickly.
I’m thinking that this is probably one of the main messages for me under this eclipse.
This weekends eclipse (Sunday afternoon here in Aus, Sunday morning and Saturday evening for those of you in the Northern hemisphere) falls opposite my Sun. To the degree. That makes it also conjunct Pluto and Uranus and pretty well on my Descendant.
To find out what this means for me, I dug out this years Moonshadow report.
What did it tell me?
This series of eclipses falls across my 1st and 7th houses (the solar eclipse in March was conjunct my Moon).
“Eclipses falling in the 1st and 7th houses symbolize a time of profound changes in the self brought about through close relationships with others. “
“It’s likely that you’ll make at least one major decision about an important relationship this year…not only romantic relationships, but close friendships and…partnerships are open for negotiation…All questions that arise during this cycle can be traced back to a common first house genesis: Who am I?”
Ok, that all makes sense. It also makes sense that the last time an eclipse came from this particular family* of eclipses was in 1997- the year I fell pregnant with my daughter. The eclipse was at 19 Pisces. Ten days before I gave birth to her, there was a lunar eclipse opposite my Sun, at the degree of my Uranus. Yes, it all makes perfect sense.
All eclipses represent a “crisis” of something…and for “crisis”, don’t necessarily read “something really bad is going to happen.” As April writes in the Moonshadow report, an eclipse aspecting the Sun represents a “crisis of self-expression”…a time to stand up and be counted, to take your rightful position on the throne that is your life, to break ranks with whatever father figure or authority has previously ruled you, to know and accept your flaws, to feel like a fraud and take a good dose of harden the flip up and fake it until you make it. Or not.
Aspects to Uranus indicates a “crisis of individuality,” and aspects to Pluto a “crisis of release.”
So, this eclipse for me is about self-expression, personal power, transformation, individuality, release, conformity, uniqueness and ascension. It’s a biggie. All of this in the background of who am I and who are you and who are we? Yep, this last phrase is a lyric in Abba’s On and On and On…but I digress.
I’ve spoken before about how eclipses don’t necessarily mean that Something will Happen. Things could happen that aren’t necessarily clear or obvious to you just yet, but they will become so- sometimes years down the track. Sometimes it won’t become clear until the next time that point is activated. Sometimes it’s immediately clear. The thing is, eclipses are not necessarily something to be scared of. They can be invigorating, they can be momentous, they can be electrifying and unpredictable- a little like Uranus in nature, a little like Pluto in nature.
I’ll have something on the New Moon itself tomorrow, but for now, have a look at where 20 Virgo falls in your chart. This is the part of life that for you will be activated by this eclipse. Have a think too about what was going on for you back in 1997 when this series was last active- although some of you could be too young for that! Other (more recent) important years activating similar points were: 2010/11, 2006/7, 2002.
To really understand eclipses, you need to look at the pattern, the upcoming cycle, the ones that have gone before and even the ones that occurred before you were born.
And that’s where Big Sky Astrology’s report could be useful for you…
The Moonshadow report is personalised to your chart, and will talk about the aspects being made by eclipses this year and next, the eclipses that have been and the planets that are being aspected…and what it all means for you. Plus there’s info about the eclipses that impacted your chart just before you were born, and general bits and pieces about eclipses.
If you’re interested, click on the link in the far side bar of the website- next to the monthly horoscopes…In the interests of full disclosure, I receive a small cut of the proceeds from each sale.
*If you’re a little more advanced in your astro, and want to find out which Saros family this eclipse falls into (for reference, this one is Saros Series 18 North). Bernadette Brady’s book The Eagle and the Lark is a brilliant resource. If you’re really technically minded, you could find this link interesting…